In loving memory of Fabrice Loria. you were a wonderful friend.

maybe to many people February is a fabulous month to celebrate love and life. but to me, February is NOT an easy month. there are a lotta memories and death anniversaries. and plus, somehow i always ended up alone on the 14th.

I had just said my final goodbye to my friend FABRICE LORIA. he is big heart, caring, funny, loving and a very genuine person that we all remembered. His death was sudden and unexpected. once again, it has taught all of us that life is fragile. looking at his 13-year-old son brandon, i couldnt help but burst into tears. He seems very strong but heart broken, no doubt. every move we make will somehow affect on people we love/love us. may angels and strength be with him.

after the funeral, i drank my sorrow away. my friend asked me, "for many years, i couldn't understand why people drink at/after funerals. i still cant..." i said, "part because you are celebrating one's life has come to an end, he/she has accomplished something. but most importantly, your loved ones DO NOT want to see you cry with a broken heart."

another interesting thing about today is that, the priest has brought up a very interesting idea of passing. Father gave us body and soul. when one passes and return to the home of father, his soul leaves the shell and rises. God might put your body away, but he will take your soul and put it closer to his. Your loved ones may never be gone, because he/she will forever be on your mind and in your heart.

there are signs that lead us to where we stand today, i truly believe that.

I later on had Fabrice's favorite food--pasta for dinner and along with some drinks to celebrate love and life. i am grateful for my life, my beloved parents and my wonderful friends. just like fabrice, I know they will always be by my side, always.

shortly after that, late night grocery shopping definitely took my mind off many things. life is short, live life the fullest. just like Fabrice said, LAUGH A LOT & DANCE YOUR ASS OFF!!!

GOODNIGHT world, goodnight my loved ones.

im thinking of all of you. =)

with Love,

Mindy